Wednesday, January 18, 2006
your other things are the main course. i'm the side dish.
when we are out last nite for the show, end up din send me up and it's already past midnight. ur reason is if send me up, den later have to find another cab. u were saying tat u r tired. and the next moment ur frenz call. the next moment u tell me u meeting them. so wad jason has a car? u will still reach home later and did u say u r TIRED?
the word tired doesnt seem to have a problem if u r meeting them. u r more than happy to do so. but i'm tired.
+ side dish+
when we are out last nite for the show, end up din send me up and it's already past midnight. ur reason is if send me up, den later have to find another cab. u were saying tat u r tired. and the next moment ur frenz call. the next moment u tell me u meeting them. so wad jason has a car? u will still reach home later and did u say u r TIRED?
the word tired doesnt seem to have a problem if u r meeting them. u r more than happy to do so. but i'm tired.
+ side dish+
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
im tired im tired. SERIOUSLY TIRED!! i hate projects!!
caa .(ytd; formal presentation on thurs). pfp .(tml). ift .(next wed). special project .(end of jan). crm .(end of jan).
how do year threes survive anyway?
and now the printer cannot be used. great. lesson starts at 12 and i actually woke up at 8am to come sch early. tot projects are meant to be grp work? it always end up not utilizing the full manpower. slackers borned every minute. or maybe they are juz dummies?
dear bringing me to watch heirloom tonite. but im so tired. my eyes can hardly open now.
caa .(ytd; formal presentation on thurs). pfp .(tml). ift .(next wed). special project .(end of jan). crm .(end of jan).
how do year threes survive anyway?
and now the printer cannot be used. great. lesson starts at 12 and i actually woke up at 8am to come sch early. tot projects are meant to be grp work? it always end up not utilizing the full manpower. slackers borned every minute. or maybe they are juz dummies?
dear bringing me to watch heirloom tonite. but im so tired. my eyes can hardly open now.
Monday, January 16, 2006
i'm retaliating.
if by doing so i'm able to get wad i wan, this is exactly wad i will do.
小心眼. this is how he describes me yesterday.
ok i admit i shldn't get angry for a SMALL matter. it's not ur fault tat u r aslp and ur hp is in the office charging. i got so pissed off when u used the three words on me. try calling me for two hours next time k?
i hate it when things are so out of my control. i hate it when i cant do things MY way. maybe at certain times, compromising realli does play a part. but pls don always expect me to understand that the way u do things is by NO CHOICE. do i look like i have a choice anyway?
pls pls pls could u think thru things in my position? i will promise to do the same thing. i will be anxious when i cant contact u. i will be sad when u make poor comments abt me. I'M OVERPOSSESSIVE. I'VE A BAD TEMPER. I'M SELFISH. if this is all u see in me, i am so so so sorry. i will take note of tat. don mistaken wor. i'm not saying it's all ur fault. I HAVE MY FAULTS. i'm still learning how to grow up. i'm angry at myself too.
-对不起，我就是一个长不大的小孩-
oh, tat fucking andy sms me last nite again, saying:
Chinatown start liao...got chance go walk walk lo...not bad...nite nite....
lame msg. wad do u wan from me? pls get out of my life.
if by doing so i'm able to get wad i wan, this is exactly wad i will do.
小心眼. this is how he describes me yesterday.
ok i admit i shldn't get angry for a SMALL matter. it's not ur fault tat u r aslp and ur hp is in the office charging. i got so pissed off when u used the three words on me. try calling me for two hours next time k?
i hate it when things are so out of my control. i hate it when i cant do things MY way. maybe at certain times, compromising realli does play a part. but pls don always expect me to understand that the way u do things is by NO CHOICE. do i look like i have a choice anyway?
pls pls pls could u think thru things in my position? i will promise to do the same thing. i will be anxious when i cant contact u. i will be sad when u make poor comments abt me. I'M OVERPOSSESSIVE. I'VE A BAD TEMPER. I'M SELFISH. if this is all u see in me, i am so so so sorry. i will take note of tat. don mistaken wor. i'm not saying it's all ur fault. I HAVE MY FAULTS. i'm still learning how to grow up. i'm angry at myself too.
-对不起，我就是一个长不大的小孩-
oh, tat fucking andy sms me last nite again, saying:
Chinatown start liao...got chance go walk walk lo...not bad...nite nite....
lame msg. wad do u wan from me? pls get out of my life.
Monday, January 09, 2006
i keep having nightmares..
last nite it got worse. dreamt of pple whom i noe getting killed. woke up feeling stunned and with shivers.. wad's wrong with me? the images bother me so much.
the moment i open my eyes, all i wan is to be in comfort of david. and i tend to feel tat he's always not ard when i needed him most. he used to brush off my nightmares saying i think too much, or how come i dreamt of these wierd things..
he nv knew wad i needed..
last nite it got worse. dreamt of pple whom i noe getting killed. woke up feeling stunned and with shivers.. wad's wrong with me? the images bother me so much.
the moment i open my eyes, all i wan is to be in comfort of david. and i tend to feel tat he's always not ard when i needed him most. he used to brush off my nightmares saying i think too much, or how come i dreamt of these wierd things..
he nv knew wad i needed..
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
thanks for the breakfast dear.. and sry to cause u last nite no slp :(
last nite while chatting on the phone with dear, accidentally compare him with shaoliang. i said smth abt shaoliang will buy me breakfast while dear cant even wake up so early. den dear take my words so seriously.. jus a casual remark.. blurt them out without much thought. we ended the call soon aft tat..
morning wake up ard 8am cos lesson starts at 9. dear sms me, ask me open my main door. mac breakfast.. so sweet of him.. but i feel so sad.
he din slp the whole nite. n i think it's cos he feels tat he wun be able to wake up if he fall aslp. today is his off day. i feel so bad u noe!! feel like slapping myself hard on my face. argh!!!!!!! my low confidence in relationship has realli affected our relationship. complaining and whinning like a kid. i think i shld stop all these. im nth but trouble. feel so like a burden.
i feel like calling him. i miss him so much. yet... im trying to distant myself away from him for the time being. im too sticky. too reliant. it's time i grow up.
he din slp the whole nite. n i think it's cos he feels tat he wun be able to wake up if he fall aslp. today is his off day. i feel so bad u noe!! feel like slapping myself hard on my face. argh!!!!!!! my low confidence in relationship has realli affected our relationship. complaining and whinning like a kid. i think i shld stop all these. im nth but trouble. feel so like a burden.
i feel like calling him. i miss him so much. yet... im trying to distant myself away from him for the time being. im too sticky. too reliant. it's time i grow up.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
a wonderful birthday indeed :)
pictures updated on my friendster are evidences of tat day after the clock strike 12am!! the part i enjoyed most is not the outcome of it. it is the part where dear made the preparation, put the candles on the bed and adjust it several times jux to make it perfect. i love my birthday cake too.. chocolate flavour along with the love dear has for me. wahh!!!!! so xin fu!!!
my birthday cake
cutting birthday cake
making birthday wishes
yummy!!
ordered pizza hut delivery for dinner on the 30th too. next morning dear has to work so he sent me home for some sleep. din realli sleep though.. went shopping in heeren with my sisters, bought some cosmetics, waiting for mr david to off work. went for movie, the Chinese Tall Story and to esplanade to watch the fireworks. so many pple wor. hate squeezing with the crowd.. but then.. dear loves fireworks. so.. i guess it's still worthwhile to go :)
but quite sad lah. mavis and lynn. din recieve any greetings from these two, who are supposely to be my FRENZ. well, maybe they are busy. i dunno. got my presents from ruiqin and kua thanks bud!! and dear.. im waiting for yours~~ hehe..
back to sch so sianx~~~~!!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! projects and tests. yucks. going for lesson le.. tata..
pictures updated on my friendster are evidences of tat day after the clock strike 12am!! the part i enjoyed most is not the outcome of it. it is the part where dear made the preparation, put the candles on the bed and adjust it several times jux to make it perfect. i love my birthday cake too.. chocolate flavour along with the love dear has for me. wahh!!!!! so xin fu!!!
my birthday cake
cutting birthday cake
making birthday wishes
yummy!!
ordered pizza hut delivery for dinner on the 30th too. next morning dear has to work so he sent me home for some sleep. din realli sleep though.. went shopping in heeren with my sisters, bought some cosmetics, waiting for mr david to off work. went for movie, the Chinese Tall Story and to esplanade to watch the fireworks. so many pple wor. hate squeezing with the crowd.. but then.. dear loves fireworks. so.. i guess it's still worthwhile to go :)
but quite sad lah. mavis and lynn. din recieve any greetings from these two, who are supposely to be my FRENZ. well, maybe they are busy. i dunno. got my presents from ruiqin and kua thanks bud!! and dear.. im waiting for yours~~ hehe..
back to sch so sianx~~~~!!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! projects and tests. yucks. going for lesson le.. tata..