Thursday, March 31, 2005
x. trying to overcome my heart `.x
u all noe abt the collection of hello kitty magnets sold by 7eleven.. those whereby u spent more than $5 u get one free magnet? and i love hello kitty from young.. shao liang gave me a full set of hello kity magnets today. 31 magnets in total.. soOOooo touched wor.. tears nearly flow down my cheeks keke.. i'm trying veri hard not to let my heart overcome my mind now.. but it's a tough thing to do.. how how??
Monday, March 28, 2005
x. first day of block leave `.x
it is monday!! but i'm at home hehe.. having my block leave this week, had a wonderful weekend wor.. *smile* last friday went to watch 5th movie of the month- the eye.. quite lame but the show is interesting.. featuring on 10 ways to c ghost.. eerie arz.. den satuarday i oso went to the x-zone arcade. played NBA wit 17 wins!! those challengers realli tire me out.. realli had a relaxing weekend. hope tat this week of block leave will go SLOWLY!!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
x. going off fer break`.x
this mth in total rite, i watched 4 movies oreadi keke.. hitch, son of the mask, robots & hostage. haiz.. the hostage is damn boring!! juz watched it ytd.. today taking flex-leave, sho will be leaving at 1pm yeah! tml ish good friday and next week my block leave. finally get to be away from tep.. erm.. tell u a toopid act i did haha, it juz happen few mins ago.. i wore a ring to go wit my dressing today mahz.. den the ring is quite loose, easy drop off. so when huimei come ardc outside saying hi to me, i too enthu to wave hands at her.. den my ring fly out of my finger drop on the floor lolx~!~!
Monday, March 21, 2005
x. a wierd outcome `.x
well.. ytd went to town with cheesiang.. hmm.. feel kind of bluff-ed by him. he din told me he'll be meeting tommy, and it's like.. did it on purpose to let both of us meet up. feel awkward nehz.. in the end 3 of us sat in mac to chit chat then went to watch the movie- robots.. quite cute the show hehe.. erm.. it still feel wierd.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
x. an early saturady `.x
i actually woke up at 6am, on a saturday!!! haha.. went to support my sis bball match. cant believe i actually kana convinced by her to go lolx.. i erm.. actually feel the bond between my 2 sis once again.. which makes me feel tat, hey.. life isn't that bad at all! *smile* today to me is a peaceful saturday, now in my own home lac lac..
Friday, March 18, 2005
x. something i'll nv will reveal `.x
these few days had been tough.. 2 days ago, there is a certain thing which.. erm.. scare the hell out of me. i realised tat, guys can be realli very very scary. cuz u will nv noe wad's on their mind.. and it's lyke.. y r u treating me this way? haiz.. this is something i'll nv reveal for the rest of my life..
Thursday, March 17, 2005
x. no more fairytale `.x
somehow, certain things make me realise that there is no fairytale in real life. it only exist in dreams... ish lurve always = hurt? in a relationship, we quarrel and get hurt. even when u try not to lurve tat some1 in ur life anymore, it still hurts. if euu say this is lurve, i'll rather not lurve.
i can never lurve euu again
with this bleeding heart broken.
i hate myself for lurving euu,
thanks for acting lyke euu cared.
i don't think i need euu anymore,
euu aren't worth tearing for.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
x. meaningful poem`.x
to fa[l]l in love is always` easy
to start a relatiOnship is always simple...
to build it, is` always tough...
to maint[a]in it, is 'better said than done'...
to break off, is 'easier said than d0ne'...
to remain frie[n]ds after u broke off, is never possible...
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
x. i had a wonderful day `.x
wow.. realli had a wonderful day yesterday nite. the moments i had wit my family makes me suddenly miss them now. after dinner ytd at the "da san yuan" there, we went to heartland mall c c look look lolx~!~! juz imagine my family of 6, going to a small bakery shop. Almost full worz haha.. but somehow, things r still wierd between me and my dad.
Monday, March 14, 2005
x. i guess i'm alrite now `.x
hmm.. the 4th day since i broke up wit him.. slowly picking up the bits & bits of my life, leaving those abt him behind. in the process of healing, but i guess i should be alrite now.. he came to find me ytd. and i told myself tat i wun let history repeat itself. i will not love him anymore. well, there's always something in life to look 4ward to!! juz like the dinner i will have wit my family today =)
Saturday, March 12, 2005
x. someone out there, juz fer me `.x
the broken soul is still healing, with a fragile heart. so handle it wit care will euu? even after wad has happened, not once tat i given up hope on love. i will still seek for true love, fer the prince charming in my life. i believe tat there's some1 out there, juz fer me. but the problem is, am i ready to start a new relationship now? am i? i don wish to c my next relationship be juz an escape route fer my broken soul.
Friday, March 11, 2005
x. i'm in a dilemma!! `.x
when u luv a guy, but he kept doing things to hurt u, is it natural for girls to put on their protective shell to stop getting hurt? i luv him.. but his actions.. the phsical pain he caused on me, left dirty scars which in my whole life i'll nv 4get. haiz.. today is supposed to be our 2nd year anniversary, a day we look 4ward for mths already. and here i am, choosing to giv everything up.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
x. bothered: to go home or not to?? `.x
it jus occured to my mind that mum actually wans me to consider going back home to stay after pursuing my studies in poly, which is one more yr left ba.. staying at my grandma hse, had been 2yrs plus since after my 'O's..
pros:
i noe she misses me alot, wans me back home and all tat, cuz i cant possibly dont go home forever mahz.. and i misses my siblings too, the way the hse is always "re nao".
cons:
i have the freedom i wan in my grandma hse. dont have to be forced doing household chores. back at home, i cant chat on phone till wee hours, cant go out late at nite, cant escape from scoldings and chores. there's no one to reprimand me here except certain nagging of course. guess i'm staying?
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
x. sad sad day~ `.x
today i broke up with the one i love.. sad huh? becuz of me being too impulsive, or is it becuz i'm holding on tooooo long? true.. this time is due to small issues again.. typical me huh? we can't even solve small issues. so.. how are we supposed to handle major ones? very vexed now.. juz feel lyke lying down on bed doing nothing.. :(
Monday, March 07, 2005
x. ardc is boring!!! `.x
this new stopover of mine is realli veri boring!! briefing all the way.. this morning only i had yawn more than 20 times lehz.. the 1st 10 yawns, hmm.. not so bad... but after 10, i feel so paiseh nehz.. been yawning like noboday biz.. haha.. hmm.. hope things will get better.. *cheers*
Saturday, March 05, 2005
x. friday nite with the one i love `.x
went to watch movie again hehe.. one of my favourite pastime.. this time is the movie- hitch. a comedy. there's a phase "9 out of 10 women believes that their 1st kiss will tell them everything about the relationship" hmm... personally, i feel that it is someway true keke.. hmm.. wad do u think? this show is realli nice. laugh throughout the show *grin* i began to realise that nowadays i go fer movies more and more often. dear say waste $$. next show will be- Son of the mask.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
x. SBM Day--> Award Day `.x
I juz came back from the sbm day.. veri excited and happy too.. =) 1st in my life time where I get top. Hehe.. diploma in financial services! Got a $100 book voucher from Thomson learning, duno where is it. Expiring at the end of April.. anyone can tell me where it is??