sorry mervin.. i juz cant get him out of my mind..

jux nt so ready for a relationship now.. been thinking lots these few days when ya nt ard.. and i feel i shldnt lead u on when i'm not so committed in da relationship.. sorri sorri!!

i'm not a gd gf..

maybe i'm realli a bitch as wad my ex said.

i rather u hate me now den to drag on our relationship to the time it's difficult to let go..

sorry.. i'm really sorry..

tml u will be back to singapore ler.. i hate to break the news to you.. but i shld be fair to ya.

Our Sweet & Sours - 12:44 AM;

ytd had lunch with serene; had a great chat with her hurhur..

den realised that i'm not the only one who seem to always have problems in my relationship.

when i told her abt my ex-bf (the guy in ns) expects changes in me, say that i'm fat -.-"' like all my other frenz, she gave me the same reply- ASK HIM GO AND DIE LAR! lolx!! thanks to u all!! at least i noe i'm not fat.

and den i heard from her tat there are guys worse than tat and the way serene sounds, it is so funny.

the ex-bf of one of fren (A) dun like her to fart nor DO BIG BUSINESS when he was out with her. he commented tat (A) is so pretty and it will be so unsightly to fart or do big business. as a result, (A) dun even dare to go toilet when they meet up.

and den, i asked serene whether both of them still together or not, she said nt together liaoz.. if they happen to marry, then (A) forever cannot clear her bowels but have to go hospital do it ler. erm.. the guy realli is ridiculous. alot of sucky guys in today's society. i even start to wonder why i like guys.

maybe i shld go for girls instead? hurhur.. mervin will be very sad to hear this..

anyway, nice to have so many friends ard. it make me realise that there are many other things in life rather than relationship tat is worth for me to treasure.

Our Sweet & Sours - 10:53 AM;

mervin in hongkong now.. hope he enjoys himself there..

recently watched the movie "the island" with him. a great show i would say. RECOMMENDED!!

last week of sch.. exams exams exams next week ler.. haix.. nid to start burying my head in my notes soon -.-"'

heard that attachment result out liaoz.. budden i still have no idea where to check it out hmm..

same old week. nothing much to say. how am i feeling now den?

Our Sweet & Sours - 2:11 PM;

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No way

Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?

Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boyruns after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind is cos' you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is cos' I love you. The reason I don't want you is cos I need you. The reason I wun cry if you left is cos I would die if you left. The reason I wun live for you is cos I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is cos Iwould do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is cos you ARE my life.

Our Sweet & Sours - 10:26 AM;

for the first time, i dunno wad to write in my bloggie -.-"'

two more weeks to my exam.. restless. juz wanna slack the whole day. my life is in a mess i can say.. i'm still trying to look for the meaning of life. got myself a dearie, almost one week ler. his name is mervin. but yet i am still uncertain of wad i wan. he had been giving to me, to my extreme emotions and uncertainty- jus cox of one word LOVE*

it is so amazing how love works in the today's society, with its wide meaning and implications. i'm not ready to commit. he knew tat too. he wanna try his luck and hope tat i will get back on the track soon. sort of regretted to be in the relationship. i dun wish to end up hurting him.

with the tons of sms and calls nowadays from my guy friends, he seem insecure and unhappy too. if i have chose to remain single, will things be easier for both of us?

Our Sweet & Sours - 2:27 PM;

time for blogging again since i'm free for the day winks*

2more projects and 1 written test on hand.. will be cleared within the next 2 weeks. after tat is EXAM!! wahh.. one semester pass so fast. or maybe cox for the last 2mths my mind is literally not in sch? haha..

got back effective ica2 results.. not so bad.. got a grade B. compensate for the previous grade D-. budden the best i can get will be a C cox ica3 is 20%. even if i score full marks i still barely hit 70.

time to face reality. got no one else to blame.

i'm catching up with all the sch stuff these 2weeks. very very busy but now can shift my attention to my exam and devote all to it.

attachment coming in mid-Aug.. dunno when i will be posted to. and it will be another busy phase of sch life.. gone back to dating. still have to create some spice in my life mah. basically everything is in place and i'm contented with the way things are.

Our Sweet & Sours - 11:09 AM;

4days since i blog hee.. my last post ish so uncouth. sry pals..

after i scolded him jerk with a reply from him bitch, it seems like he wanna cut off ties with me. i realise he deleted the past testimonials he wrote. cool. and i delete him off my friendster list. who is he to call me bitch? unless he's a bastard =)

last weekend watched "fantastic four". the movie was great. fantastic. this week so tired.. spending near to 10hours in sch these 2days. dun even have the time to eat wor.. i still remember i start having my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner at 8pm last nite. monday rushing my QM report and effective portfolio, tuesday rushing my ib ica2 and tml going back to submit it. after tat, time for my ib project.

i think i need some rest.. so.. not going to sch on friday =p

love the way my life goes now.. no commitment.. jus have to be myself and do wad i wan. cool. dun try to change my life. dun try to change who i am. if u here to change me, get outta my life.

Our Sweet & Sours - 10:04 PM;

jerk!! damn fucking jerk. to think tat i believe u on the friendster msg matter. wtf!! she's an ex-gf of yours 2 years back. how did i noe? cox she's in my msn list. and wad did u told me? u said she is a friend of ur friend. when i questioned u tt time abt this, i still remembered how u used a fucking bad tone to reply me. and i actually tot it is MY fault for not trusting u. in case it is not clear enough who i'm referring to, he is my supposed-to-be dearie for the past 2 months. stop all those NOT TAT I DUN LOVE YOU, I JUX NEED TIME TO GET BACK THE SAME OLD FEELING.

jerk. the word fits u too well. good. it all ended good.

Our Sweet & Sours - 11:17 AM;

phew! +breath in+breathe out+ this week finally over. next week can slack abit den have to rush projects again..

jux finished my IB test wor.. to study for it, actually slept in ard 3am. the test at 9am. sleepy now -.- jux like wad kua say, no time to finish the paper!! haix!! worse thing is i so sleepy den actually forget to write in certain points..

+My Paper+

1/3 of the paper: know how to do

the other 1/3: know how to do; budden too sleepy do half wrong

rest of 1/3: dunno how to do; anyhow write

haix.. it's over.. so no point broading over it.. pray tat i have a pass* dun dare to aim so high. weekends gonna be relaxing. cox already got plans for later this evening to sunday grins* i cant stay home any further. rotting soon keke..

Our Sweet & Sours - 10:14 AM;

That's me; for now:

i cant allow stains in my relationship.

if there's any, i'll pack up and leave.

so sorry.

i'm jux chasing after wad everyone wish- perfect

Our Sweet & Sours - 6:12 PM;

back to sch again.

tired, budden this time round tired doesnt mean unhappy anymore.. keke.. saturday went to J8, had lunch there and bought 2 tops from 77th street hee.. oops.. spend $$ again.. one black top and the other is a combination of white and pink. hmm.. pinkish* u will seldom see me in =p

and last nite my 2 darlings came over to acc me for the night. 3 of us squeeze together on a queen size bed haha.. we slept in quite late..

so.. it's time to get down to sch work. insurance presentation tml, and ib test on friday. next week: qm project, ib project and effective portfolio due. wahh..

it's realli time to catch up with my stuff. more or less, i'm over with him. he's outta my life now. deleted his contacts from my hp oreadi. someone or something else gotta replace him in my life. and oh ya.. reminds me of liang..

liang,

pls dun shout at me, demanding an answer again.. now i'm realli not yet ready for another relationship. jux let nature takes its course k? cox if u insist on rushing things, i might jux start avoiding u and i dun wish to see tat happen.. i jux like the way things are right now.. sry..

Our Sweet & Sours - 11:26 AM;

Thanks lao kua.. jux saw ur bloggie*

Saw Wanning this morning at the atrium while waiting for my frens, ermmm..

This ger seem rather tired and lack of the cheerfulness that she once had, she said that she's rather puzzled the way that someone had treated her...

I was puzzled too, maybe that someone intention is simple but we interpreted it in a complicating way... Maybe ba.. I dunno...

No matter wat, juz wanna see her smile once again... "Ger, no one can snatch away your happiness de wor.. I believe that there's someone out there waiting for you - Your Mr. Right lor.. Hee.. If he don't treasure U, so be it la... That someone will make you a happy ger once again de..

feel so connected to u esp. u used to experience similar problems with ur bf.. realli admire u. can handle ur relationship so well..

as for me, i've been such a failure. cant even keep my love one by my side. this sunday, supposely is our 3rd mth anni. and oso the 100th day since we 1st met each other.

i used to say, kang and ning, never be replaced. i guess it doesnt happen in real life *cries*

been trying to act strong.. but u see thru me. yea.. realli tired. the happy and cheerful me, seems to dunno go where. every nite feel like crying.. but wad's the use? he's gone. and gone for good.

realli appreciate to have u all as my frenz.. ruiqin and u.. been so understanding and helpful to my projects. thanks gers.. so touched.. love u guys!!

Our Sweet & Sours - 4:08 PM;