Thursday, July 06, 2006
Sigh.. the other night wanted to place $50 bet to support Italy (Germany-Italy match), din manage to buy cos too many ppl buying and they are onli accepting bets for at least $100. In the end, Italy won. $$ ~~~~ and then last night was between Portugal and France. I've chosen the losing party. Lost 50 bucks. So suay. Why did i even think of betting anyway? So unlike me.
I tried to work OT almost everyday this week. I dun wan to think abt our relationship. Perhaps some of u feel tat I'm the one creating problem here. I can tell u tat its a MISCONCEPTION if u tell me i jus need to be more understanding and everything will be alright. Don use the word on me. Understanding can lead to the other party taking u for granted. I wan him to realise tat putting 100% effort in relationship is from day one thing. I wan him to stop having the mindset tat he can always accompany me, coax me, sweet talk with me AFTER he is done with his stuff. Becos, I might not be there anymore AFTER that.
I often look back to day one and get upset when things are so different from day one. I don wan to hear sorry. It has become a everyday thing. I know he is trying very very hard to accomodate my needs ok. But if he do it only AFTER I got pissed off, forget it.
I am so difficult to please hor? Perhaps i shld move out of here and move on with my life. That is only achievable if I am more persistent. But when I'm in his arms, I retreat.