Friday, November 10, 2006
Guys are a bunch of insensitive jerks, and so is my guy.
Guys no matter what. they still lack the bit of sensitivity towards us.
All David Soh sees:- ::Work:: ::Money::
(They are co-related anyway) What i mean is he sees the BIG thing and that he is blind to the tiny mini things a girl needs. Come on! Not everything is about the dollar sign $$! Are you dumb enough to think that with all the money but no time for me will make me happy? I fake MC today to escape from work. Work makes my life so dull that i do not have any energy left to care abt other things. All i want is your company but why does it seem so far reached nowadays?? So sad...
Being a working adult now is no fun to talk abt. To watch every cent i spend doesn't make me happier even when it comes to the 26th of every mth (pay day). So i end up spending more and more to sort of reward my tough day at work.
::See This::
Facial package at jeap yip=$2688
Mthly...
Allowance to Mum=$150
Allowance to Grandma=$50 (will try to increase when my pay gets more)
Meals=$300
Transport=$60 (at least)
Hp Bill=$30
Shopping=$200 min (it all depends)
Slave of work. No one loves to work, yet EVERYONE is working. Driving me crazy. Stressing up my guy. Causing me to lose support from him (because I am expected to give him moral support and not the other way round!!) Damn it. What kinda life i'm living?
Sunday, October 08, 2006
My boy is sleeping. Poor him, had been slaving the whole 9 hours when i'm sleeping.
He's been improving, trying his best to give me what i want. Even it means throwing the old him behind. And that's why we r still together. Being together is not all abt love. It's abt getting used to live with each other because when feelings fade, there is nth else to keep it going.
Did a spring cleaning yesterday, and i mean my face. Went to jean yip for a facial and it cost me a bomb! $2688 to be exact. Consist of 10 times treatment. Designed to clear pimples, scars and everything. Inclusive of $800 product voucher whereby i already use up $700. Quite xin tong when i finally key in my pin number haha. 4 months of savings wiped out. Well, ultimately i want the best for my face. Rather i sign up for a cheaper $888 but at the end of the day still can see flaws on my face rite? Heard that the money spent there can turn into points and exchanged for other jeap yip services. A new hairstyle perhaps? I'm waiting!
Meaning i have to scrimp for the following months to save back the same amt. It's worth it- this is how i console myself lol~ This year i'm turning 20. Thinking back, many things have changed. I'm working now, i'm earning, i'm spending MORE. What abt my studies? Hmmm... Haven really sit down and think.
Dearly fishy, all these years we have been great cousins rite? You have seen the ups and downs of my life. You were there when i'm still stucked with ShaoLiang and you clearly knew the route for me. So, dun hesitate to choose the correct route. My advise is that, i cannot tolerate a guy who cheats on me before cos he no longer able to provide me a sense of security. I would rather you move on. He, flirting with other girl just shows he is childish. He cant take care of you. I dun wan to see u hurt ok. Guys who are capable of hurting girls WUN change. Maybe these are not what u want to hear, and tat's y i chose the indirect way to tell u. Take care dear..
Monday, August 14, 2006
I wan to feel protected, away from reality!!!
hw cum i cant find this feeling in him anymore? where has the sweet nothings gone to? all abt us in life is STRESS from work. he is forcing me to grow up, to face the real world, to accept tat he will no longer FREE to be there whenever i nid him.
I long for a fairytale. A prince who is able to take care of me, protect me. I cant realli remember, since which day, his problems become my problem n my problem become insignificant as compared to his. My heart is floating away, day by day...
8mth anniversary today. 1, 2, 3... 6, 7, 8... as i was counting, i realise our relationship is dragging on day by day, mth by mth. THIS IS NOT WAD I WAN! I protested n alarmed him. Now it is up to him to respong n salvage.
Monday, July 10, 2006
wa seh! @#$%#$#@! raining the whole afternoon, spoil my outing. actually went east coast park rent bicycle.. can u imagine 1st 15min of cycling and next half hr of pouring and soon one hr of renting pass. kaox. my legs so tired jus by walking. as for ytd, went shopping. from far east to wisma, mccafe and then to plaza sing.. quite enjoy my time in town. talking abt it, i went to plaza sing's myphosis, bought two tops and a pair of slippers. total $77.70. jus before i left da shop i checked my stuffs, found out that the sales girl charged me 30 over dollars for tat pair of slippers when it actually cost onli 13. YAWN!!~~~~~~~~~slpy liao lah. but will be staying up for the final match. tml still need to work... bless me..
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Sigh.. the other night wanted to place $50 bet to support Italy (Germany-Italy match), din manage to buy cos too many ppl buying and they are onli accepting bets for at least $100. In the end, Italy won. $$ ~~~~ and then last night was between Portugal and France. I've chosen the losing party. Lost 50 bucks. So suay. Why did i even think of betting anyway? So unlike me.
I tried to work OT almost everyday this week. I dun wan to think abt our relationship. Perhaps some of u feel tat I'm the one creating problem here. I can tell u tat its a MISCONCEPTION if u tell me i jus need to be more understanding and everything will be alright. Don use the word on me. Understanding can lead to the other party taking u for granted. I wan him to realise tat putting 100% effort in relationship is from day one thing. I wan him to stop having the mindset tat he can always accompany me, coax me, sweet talk with me AFTER he is done with his stuff. Becos, I might not be there anymore AFTER that.
I often look back to day one and get upset when things are so different from day one. I don wan to hear sorry. It has become a everyday thing. I know he is trying very very hard to accomodate my needs ok. But if he do it only AFTER I got pissed off, forget it.
I am so difficult to please hor? Perhaps i shld move out of here and move on with my life. That is only achievable if I am more persistent. But when I'm in his arms, I retreat.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
You guys din waste a trip here. Have a sudden urge to update my unwanted blog; to voice out everything.
April 24 is my first day of work. Mon ~ Fri [8.30am to 6.15pm]- 6mth contract with basic pay $1560 & OT $12+/hr. Job is to process loan for companies. It has been more than 2mths, the most challenging task i feel is taking up the responsibility of creating and maintaining a post-acceptance database with microsoft access. The system works like this: when the user open the database, they see it as a form. They can either add new record, edit existing record, or retrieve reports. When something goes wrong, they come and find me.
I live my life dull but content. Life to me is work and at the same time maintain the relationships between me, my guy, my family and my friends. Dull but nonetheless tough. I experienced stress at work cos i am expected to process new applications everyday and aat the same time improvise the database to the needs of those who used it. In sch i only learnt the basic. I tried my best anyway. After work, i love to be in the comfort of my guy. Cuddle together after dinner, watching television and whisper sweet nothings. For convenience sake, i lived into his home. He sent me to work everyday, a 15min journey from his house, compared to an hour from my home. Problem arises- My family isnt comfortable with this. Although my mum doesnt insist i move back, she wans me to noe how to take care of myself. But for my granny with an old generation thinking, i chose to lied that i was living with a FRIEND.One day, she began to doubt my words. She is almost certain tat i'm living with my guy. Then she scolded me but i refused to be her good girl.
I can sacrifice my relationship with my granny but he has to make sure he's worth it. Ever since he gave up his job at k-box to be a property agent, he somehow gave me up too. There is no more cuddling and sweet nothings. All is abt time and money. It's not that i dun understand his stress. I wan to make sure he doesnt neglect me. Amist his busy schedule, i guess the only time left for us is dinner time, and perhaps sleeping time. Well, i can relate to u what will happen. His phone will ring every other min. There is barely time for conversation. Even there is, it will be abt his work, work and also work. Two days ago, we went to MOS, a farewell party for his friend. I see another friend who is attached, cuddling with a girl all the time. Jerks, but i think it's natural in this kinda place. And for my guy, i jus realise he doesnt show affections in public anymore. I initiate the kiss. I initiate the hug. Not long after, i broke down.
I'm tired of hearing excuses that he is stress with work, he has no time for me becos of work, he needs money to cover his basic expenses. and i even lent him money. I tot he is the one for me, so i let him in. He came making a mess, so i want him out. Our relationship is on a downtrend and i am in total loss of how to maintain it, and i wan to give it all up badly. I wan to break up.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
yay!! recieved a call from WingTai this afternoon. tml interview @ 9am wor.. nervous nervous! wish me luck ok?
now @ my hubby's hus again.. tml he sending me to the place.. he had been supportive and despite the rush cos he has to reach his work place @ 9am too, he offer to send me there b4 he head off to work.. the job is for accounts assistant.. i'm major in finance only know abit on accounting, wonder if it is a concern or nort.. hmm..
mummy ask me abt helping out with them this sunday, for which last sunday is wad i did. and i agreed of cos, esp when my dad told her tat one family go work he's very happy =) tml cannot come here stay ler.. cos they found me missing last nite and i lied to them tat i go chalet.. im still thinking whether tml going back to my own hus or grandma's hus..
ok lar.. update to u guys again on the outcome of the interview.. knock out soon.
now @ my hubby's hus again.. tml he sending me to the place.. he had been supportive and despite the rush cos he has to reach his work place @ 9am too, he offer to send me there b4 he head off to work.. the job is for accounts assistant.. i'm major in finance only know abit on accounting, wonder if it is a concern or nort.. hmm..
mummy ask me abt helping out with them this sunday, for which last sunday is wad i did. and i agreed of cos, esp when my dad told her tat one family go work he's very happy =) tml cannot come here stay ler.. cos they found me missing last nite and i lied to them tat i go chalet.. im still thinking whether tml going back to my own hus or grandma's hus..
ok lar.. update to u guys again on the outcome of the interview.. knock out soon.
Monday, March 27, 2006
Well well, i noe yang chenling is pretty is cute. but u dun have to immediately ask "GOT YANG CHEN LING MEH?" when i say "GOT UR FAVOURITE PERSON SHOWN IN TV LEH.." jus testing u only and see what kind of ans i get. ya im jealous, narrow minded. u can say wadever u wan i dun care.
Friday, March 24, 2006
first of all, let me say a big THANK YOU to kwee.. finally got a proper resume done with her help.. we practically spend the whole afternoon dealing with this. beginning to get anxious.. ruiqin, mavis, kua, kwee all found jobs liao.. but im still lazying and doing nothing!!!!! haix.. useless fellow.
next, let me comment tat i have childish parents!!! quarrelling in the middle of the nite. to be precise, its actually ard 2am. quarrel for an hour and it ended with my dad hugging my mum. lolx.. buey tarhan. really ah.. let me and my sister worry the hell for both of you. well.. everything's fine and this is what it matters.
and today, mummy actually called me up to ask me if i found a job, what im intending to do for my future and CHAT with me!! diao.. tot she is going to nag and scold me when she phoned me but she ended up chatting almost like a close fren. i have spent these few days building the bond between me and my family. love you love you love you all!
and oso to mention abt my cute boyfriend who find me a Parasite. basically is because im jobless and he have to support two mouths keke.. but he say he will support me even if im a parasite =P now at his hm loh. and he is sitting beside me sucking the winter melon tea, and reading my blog entry of course. lets jux see how long i can laze. the longer it is, the tougher it will be for my dearie. but i think nvm lah hor. you promise to date me next mth when u got ur pay. i want go eat sushi, go watch movie (damn long time no watch le!!!!!!!!!!)
dear's family thinking of moving hus.. and juz now his dad mention abt registering and both of us buy flat. wah.. i tot both of us think too far when tat time we chatted about using the next 5 yrs to save for our marriage. but now i noe his dad more... hmm.. it's like i nv expect his dad to approve our marriage in advance haha.. he jux hit my head with his ERA HDB notes cos i juz now ask did i say want marry you? hehe.. but i think im going to be stuck with him. who ask him to be so cute hehe.. simply love him.
speaking of ERA, his next step for our future is to move on to property agent. now he already started to attend courses learning more about selling property, the procedures and guidelines. jia you wor! u have my support. which means to say, if any of you or your relative planning to buy or sell flat, or anyone thinking of renting a flat or room, approach me ok! mux support me oso leh. my future haha.. and kwee, don envy =P
haix. he told me to switch off the computer myself. wad a bf. when i type did i say i wan to marry him? his reaction realli make me laugh keke.. marry u loh.. blushing*
next, let me comment tat i have childish parents!!! quarrelling in the middle of the nite. to be precise, its actually ard 2am. quarrel for an hour and it ended with my dad hugging my mum. lolx.. buey tarhan. really ah.. let me and my sister worry the hell for both of you. well.. everything's fine and this is what it matters.
and today, mummy actually called me up to ask me if i found a job, what im intending to do for my future and CHAT with me!! diao.. tot she is going to nag and scold me when she phoned me but she ended up chatting almost like a close fren. i have spent these few days building the bond between me and my family. love you love you love you all!
and oso to mention abt my cute boyfriend who find me a Parasite. basically is because im jobless and he have to support two mouths keke.. but he say he will support me even if im a parasite =P now at his hm loh. and he is sitting beside me sucking the winter melon tea, and reading my blog entry of course. lets jux see how long i can laze. the longer it is, the tougher it will be for my dearie. but i think nvm lah hor. you promise to date me next mth when u got ur pay. i want go eat sushi, go watch movie (damn long time no watch le!!!!!!!!!!)
dear's family thinking of moving hus.. and juz now his dad mention abt registering and both of us buy flat. wah.. i tot both of us think too far when tat time we chatted about using the next 5 yrs to save for our marriage. but now i noe his dad more... hmm.. it's like i nv expect his dad to approve our marriage in advance haha.. he jux hit my head with his ERA HDB notes cos i juz now ask did i say want marry you? hehe.. but i think im going to be stuck with him. who ask him to be so cute hehe.. simply love him.
speaking of ERA, his next step for our future is to move on to property agent. now he already started to attend courses learning more about selling property, the procedures and guidelines. jia you wor! u have my support. which means to say, if any of you or your relative planning to buy or sell flat, or anyone thinking of renting a flat or room, approach me ok! mux support me oso leh. my future haha.. and kwee, don envy =P
haix. he told me to switch off the computer myself. wad a bf. when i type did i say i wan to marry him? his reaction realli make me laugh keke.. marry u loh.. blushing*
Thursday, February 23, 2006
cover ur ears cos im going to shout
EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! OFFICIALLY OUT OF NYP!!!!!!!!
lolx.. but today caa paper DAMN difficult. think it is the most difficult paper in my whole of three yrs in nyp. sucks. shld be able to pass bah.. yeah? but anyway, last nite din sleep.. er.. not to count the 2 hours of dozing off from 5am to 9am, 11am to 1am.. haha.. tat's abt all cos paper is at 4.30pm..
now at dear's hus.. eyes so watery ler.. waiting for him to get out of the bathroom and can send me home for the day :) thanks dear for fetching me after my papers for all the four days muacks! yawn~~ the final destination 3 u all watch liao mah? gonna watch tml.. now tat i got all the time for myself, i oso dunno when i shld start planning for my future, wad job, where, when.. sigh.. let's jus dun think of it first.
continue another day. finish chatting with kwee then off to home ler.. yawn~~!~!~!~!~!~!
EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! OFFICIALLY OUT OF NYP!!!!!!!!
lolx.. but today caa paper DAMN difficult. think it is the most difficult paper in my whole of three yrs in nyp. sucks. shld be able to pass bah.. yeah? but anyway, last nite din sleep.. er.. not to count the 2 hours of dozing off from 5am to 9am, 11am to 1am.. haha.. tat's abt all cos paper is at 4.30pm..
now at dear's hus.. eyes so watery ler.. waiting for him to get out of the bathroom and can send me home for the day :) thanks dear for fetching me after my papers for all the four days muacks! yawn~~ the final destination 3 u all watch liao mah? gonna watch tml.. now tat i got all the time for myself, i oso dunno when i shld start planning for my future, wad job, where, when.. sigh.. let's jus dun think of it first.
continue another day. finish chatting with kwee then off to home ler.. yawn~~!~!~!~!~!~!
Sunday, February 19, 2006
sigh.. damn busy with exams preparation.. let's tok abt my valentine's day this yr :)
in the morning dear working and i studying.. tat nite went east coast eat seafood grins* a simple valentine though, but very sweet.. jux the both of us and nth else matters keke.. i wanna spend all valentine's day with u from now onwards!!! but my exams dampen my mood.. one paper down.. three to go.. CAA will be a tough paper... how how? sigh..
in the morning dear working and i studying.. tat nite went east coast eat seafood grins* a simple valentine though, but very sweet.. jux the both of us and nth else matters keke.. i wanna spend all valentine's day with u from now onwards!!! but my exams dampen my mood.. one paper down.. three to go.. CAA will be a tough paper... how how? sigh..
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
catch a morning ride to sch from dear again haha.. perhaps this will be the last morning drive liao.. 1st paper next friday afternoon, and the next thing is... I'M GRADUATING!!
sounds scary lolx! i still haben path my way for my post-graduation. but most prob i gonna give university a miss. jac say it's such a waste to miss it but den.. i don have the financial support and i have no confidence to bear the pressure tat sch can give... sigh..
if i were to step into the working society, there is oso bound to be stress and new things to adapt with.. the onli difference is tat i EARN, rather than SPEND. but mum says a higher education level brings higher income in future.. how how? it's either i bear with it for another 3 yrs continue study and find a part-time too, OR i forget abt the whole thing and juz find a steady job. not to forget tat i have to repay my bank loan for poly fees sigh..
sounds scary lolx! i still haben path my way for my post-graduation. but most prob i gonna give university a miss. jac say it's such a waste to miss it but den.. i don have the financial support and i have no confidence to bear the pressure tat sch can give... sigh..
if i were to step into the working society, there is oso bound to be stress and new things to adapt with.. the onli difference is tat i EARN, rather than SPEND. but mum says a higher education level brings higher income in future.. how how? it's either i bear with it for another 3 yrs continue study and find a part-time too, OR i forget abt the whole thing and juz find a steady job. not to forget tat i have to repay my bank loan for poly fees sigh..